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-Miss Isabel
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Thursday, February 16, 2012
"The guest I was looking for..."
So many times I invited love in my life and when it knocked at my door, I opened and found myself looking around to see if it wouldn't be accompanied by another guest... I realize that the thing I was really looking for was comfort, not love. Same thing with friendship or art or anything! When they knocked at my door as a surprise or as I invited them myself, I didn't let them come in unless they came with comfort... which they rarely did. Why??? Comfort usually comes with another type of guest such as compromise or illusion. I think now that it is much more simple and true to welcome the pure feelings and life experiences as they are without trying to manipulate them, twisting them to fit my own vision or way to do things. I need to allow love, friendship, faith and all of these wonderful guests to shock me, surprise me, stupefy me, and to leave me speechless, helpless, breathless...
My friends...I don't understand love... I don't understand life... I can't figure out what friendship is all about... but whatever... the love I live, the life I'm blessed with and the friendships I discover every day are making me feel so alive... they are delightful mysteries and I am welcoming them as they are.
I have to admit, a lot of times it makes me feel very frustrated and uncomfortable not to understand and control everything in my life. To let go is my every day challenge. Opening up like I do every single week in this diary is an exercise that helps me so much but it could very easily become a trap if I again invite comfort instead of real growth and sharing... comfort would mean to use the right words to make you agree with me and again manipulate to get you to love me. I am alone in this process so I have to watch myself and really be true. Which is different when we're doing the band interviews like the special Where Did We Lose Each Other series (that you HAVE TO watch by the way... they truly are a source of treasure!!!). These interviews are intense for me and comfort is not even knocking at the door!lol These video interviews confront me, push me to strip down the nice smiles to expose myself more like the example the guys are setting in front of me. That's the power of being together I believe... the impact the guys have on me is my treasure and saved me so many times...
Jeff is always an example for me of being true and not to care about showing off something nice, but displaying something true. When he lives his emotions live on the Bla Bla Bla and talks about his struggles in the different videos and just to see him always committed to supporting each and everyone of us... To hear Alex say live that he couldn't blog for so many years and developed agoraphobia... exposing himself... telling the world about it just as raw and true as the reality was for him. When I see him today overcoming his own demons and blogging again after so many years saying that he finally found himself a home, a place in his life where he knows he's at the right place, at the right time and being really happy, wanting to share with everyone... well that makes me curious about what he will explore in his life and share with all of us... I think his blog should be in our BOOKMARKS! Go ahead Alex! Explore your own soul, change your world and create your Disney Land! Share it with us and we won't remain only witnesses, we'll also gain strength and we will be inspired to do the same in our life!!!
Everything is a question of decision and of the degree of commitment we will have concerning these same decisions. It's the beauty of being an adult! We can of course act like kids, constantly reacting to what is happening, complaining that we don't have what we want, disgusted because we get dirty and nobody is cleaning up our mess, playing carelessly with whatever ends up in our hands, breaking up the precious things we have in our life and running after the next toys... So many of these "kids" finish their life alone, unable to laugh, empty handed and wiping wordless tears. I don't want to be like that. So that means I have to pay attention to each of my decisions, commit to what I decide in my life and commit to the people I surround myself with.
Over the years of blogging I have always tried to give you my best, but looking back I know I have failed at pushing my own limits of comfort to touch and share what is really true and the real love, the real friendship. But you guys are so good to me, so patient and so encouraging. I am thankful to you and I do commit to open my door to our life together, to push and free myself from anything that could try to keep me from loving you for real.
-Miss Isabel
My friends...I don't understand love... I don't understand life... I can't figure out what friendship is all about... but whatever... the love I live, the life I'm blessed with and the friendships I discover every day are making me feel so alive... they are delightful mysteries and I am welcoming them as they are.
I have to admit, a lot of times it makes me feel very frustrated and uncomfortable not to understand and control everything in my life. To let go is my every day challenge. Opening up like I do every single week in this diary is an exercise that helps me so much but it could very easily become a trap if I again invite comfort instead of real growth and sharing... comfort would mean to use the right words to make you agree with me and again manipulate to get you to love me. I am alone in this process so I have to watch myself and really be true. Which is different when we're doing the band interviews like the special Where Did We Lose Each Other series (that you HAVE TO watch by the way... they truly are a source of treasure!!!). These interviews are intense for me and comfort is not even knocking at the door!lol These video interviews confront me, push me to strip down the nice smiles to expose myself more like the example the guys are setting in front of me. That's the power of being together I believe... the impact the guys have on me is my treasure and saved me so many times...
Jeff is always an example for me of being true and not to care about showing off something nice, but displaying something true. When he lives his emotions live on the Bla Bla Bla and talks about his struggles in the different videos and just to see him always committed to supporting each and everyone of us... To hear Alex say live that he couldn't blog for so many years and developed agoraphobia... exposing himself... telling the world about it just as raw and true as the reality was for him. When I see him today overcoming his own demons and blogging again after so many years saying that he finally found himself a home, a place in his life where he knows he's at the right place, at the right time and being really happy, wanting to share with everyone... well that makes me curious about what he will explore in his life and share with all of us... I think his blog should be in our BOOKMARKS! Go ahead Alex! Explore your own soul, change your world and create your Disney Land! Share it with us and we won't remain only witnesses, we'll also gain strength and we will be inspired to do the same in our life!!!
Everything is a question of decision and of the degree of commitment we will have concerning these same decisions. It's the beauty of being an adult! We can of course act like kids, constantly reacting to what is happening, complaining that we don't have what we want, disgusted because we get dirty and nobody is cleaning up our mess, playing carelessly with whatever ends up in our hands, breaking up the precious things we have in our life and running after the next toys... So many of these "kids" finish their life alone, unable to laugh, empty handed and wiping wordless tears. I don't want to be like that. So that means I have to pay attention to each of my decisions, commit to what I decide in my life and commit to the people I surround myself with.
Over the years of blogging I have always tried to give you my best, but looking back I know I have failed at pushing my own limits of comfort to touch and share what is really true and the real love, the real friendship. But you guys are so good to me, so patient and so encouraging. I am thankful to you and I do commit to open my door to our life together, to push and free myself from anything that could try to keep me from loving you for real.
-Miss Isabel
Thursday, February 9, 2012
"let's be sensitive to what happens inside of us."
My dear brother, my sweet sister...
Can I invite you on a journey?
It is an invitation I received to look at myself in a mirror called "Where Did We Lose Each Other"... This song really talks about my life, it reflects my losses, it screams my hopes and it enlightens my crossroads. Since the first day I read these words, I knew they were a mirror that I had the option to look into for real or turn my eyes away in denial. Just like it has been said in one of the videos of the special project page, either we decide to face reality or slowly we become the reflection of something else, far from being alive and far from being our true self...just a pale reflection of our illusions.
Enough with the illusions, enough with cutting ourselves from embracing this life of communion and love, there's more awaiting for us and I want all of us to grasp whatever is ours!
Let's read this text, let's listen to the song and let's be sensitive to what happens inside of us...
1) Which line sticks to your brain?
2) What word(s) cuts into your heart like a precise surgeon?
3) What is in it that confuses you or enlightens you?
4 ) What feeling comes up to the surface, that you have to deal with as you listen to the song and see the video?
My answers are down here in the comment section...I'm waiting for yours!!!
-Miss Isabel
Can I invite you on a journey?
It is an invitation I received to look at myself in a mirror called "Where Did We Lose Each Other"... This song really talks about my life, it reflects my losses, it screams my hopes and it enlightens my crossroads. Since the first day I read these words, I knew they were a mirror that I had the option to look into for real or turn my eyes away in denial. Just like it has been said in one of the videos of the special project page, either we decide to face reality or slowly we become the reflection of something else, far from being alive and far from being our true self...just a pale reflection of our illusions.
Enough with the illusions, enough with cutting ourselves from embracing this life of communion and love, there's more awaiting for us and I want all of us to grasp whatever is ours!
Let's read this text, let's listen to the song and let's be sensitive to what happens inside of us...
" Where Did We Lose Each Other -French part translated by Miss Isabel- "
It’s been a while isn’t it
Where did we lose each other
Is it somewhere between
Your skin, my grief and weakness
Where did we lose each other
It’s strange somehow (illusions feeding memories)
There must be dreams I can breathe
Love’s long way gone (winter’s crawling over me)
It’s been a while, it’s been too long
I should have told you everything,
Needed to keep it in, to keep the sorrows inside
Your eyes, your eyes, looking at me
Your blame, my shame, a thousand whispers
I’m falling down, I’m on my knees
Just like a soul who lost his way, away, away
The cut is deep, but ain’t too late
Need salvation to light my way, away, away
I’m just a dream who’s been fading away
A craving ghost that kept running way
Grace’s out of sight, I won’t give it away
Just give it away, can’t give it away…
It’s been a while isn’t it,
Glad to be back from despairs
I never thought it could
Be good to scream in laughter
Where did we lose each other
It’s strange somehow (I’ve been dressed up in your fears)
I’ve learned to lie in my grief
Tear’s long way gone (I’m not sleeping at your feet )
I’m falling down, I’m on my knees
Just like a soul who lost his way, away, away
The cut is deep, but ain’t too late
Need salvation to light my way, away, away
I’m just a dream who’s been fading away
A craving ghost that kept running way
Grace’s out of sight, I won’t give it away
Just give it away, can’t give it away…
I am winter, I am the wind
A dead season, betrayed a hundred times
a fooled heart fooled, slap of time
All is lost, I'm broken
I believed in you, painted with white,
You lied to me, soiled from dawn,
Followed your steps, dizzy soul
I no longer love you, I come back to life
I’m falling down, I’m on my knees
Just like a soul who lost his way, away, away
The cut is deep, but ain’t too late
Need salvation to light my way, away, away
I’m just a dream who’s been fading away
A craving ghost that kept running way
Grace’s out of sight, I won’t give it away
Just give it away, can’t give it away…
1) Which line sticks to your brain?
2) What word(s) cuts into your heart like a precise surgeon?
3) What is in it that confuses you or enlightens you?
4 ) What feeling comes up to the surface, that you have to deal with as you listen to the song and see the video?
My answers are down here in the comment section...I'm waiting for yours!!!
-Miss Isabel
Thursday, February 2, 2012
"I Urge You To Explore!"
My dear friends,
you have no idea how important the next minutes could be...They could impact your life forever... You decided to take a few minutes to read this blog maybe out of curiosity or you are faithfully welcoming my heart and thoughts, allowing me to share with you and grow up with you. But I will surprise you this week because I won't write many lines, I will in fact urge you to explore something that I personally want to dig in deeply and think about: Alex's new blog!
Some of you might not know, but Alex wrote some blogs a while back and each of them were so intense and powerful that I have witnessed international movements arising after some of his blogs, I saw people finding the courage to open up for the first time about things they wanted to be freed from... I remember wondering myself how he could gather enough love and trust to be able to deliver such honesty. Listen... this man is not God or anything close to perfect, but just take this moment as an opportunity to explore his thoughts, his heart, his vision as he talks about the words he wrote without even knowing they would become the song: "Where Did We Lose Each Other".
"As a writer, everything starts in a very isolated place, where your emotions could freely bloom because you're not exposed."-Alex
Many people asked him to blog again, to expose more of who he is, what meaning is carried in his words and how he sees the challenges of life, and as I myself dig in his new blog I totally understand why... there's a treasure there for me... there's something in it for you too...
I urge you to explore and find your treasure!
NOW: http://alexhenryfoster.com/
-Miss Isabel
you have no idea how important the next minutes could be...They could impact your life forever... You decided to take a few minutes to read this blog maybe out of curiosity or you are faithfully welcoming my heart and thoughts, allowing me to share with you and grow up with you. But I will surprise you this week because I won't write many lines, I will in fact urge you to explore something that I personally want to dig in deeply and think about: Alex's new blog!
Some of you might not know, but Alex wrote some blogs a while back and each of them were so intense and powerful that I have witnessed international movements arising after some of his blogs, I saw people finding the courage to open up for the first time about things they wanted to be freed from... I remember wondering myself how he could gather enough love and trust to be able to deliver such honesty. Listen... this man is not God or anything close to perfect, but just take this moment as an opportunity to explore his thoughts, his heart, his vision as he talks about the words he wrote without even knowing they would become the song: "Where Did We Lose Each Other".
"As a writer, everything starts in a very isolated place, where your emotions could freely bloom because you're not exposed."-Alex
Many people asked him to blog again, to expose more of who he is, what meaning is carried in his words and how he sees the challenges of life, and as I myself dig in his new blog I totally understand why... there's a treasure there for me... there's something in it for you too...
I urge you to explore and find your treasure!
NOW: http://alexhenryfoster.com/
-Miss Isabel
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