"The guest I was looking for..."

So many times I invited love in my life and when it knocked at my door, I opened and found myself looking around to see if it wouldn't be accompanied by another guest... I realize that the thing I was really looking for was comfort, not love. Same thing with friendship or art or anything! When they knocked at my door as a surprise or as I invited them myself, I didn't let them come in unless they came with comfort... which they rarely did. Why??? Comfort usually comes with another type of guest such as compromise or illusion. I think now that it is much more simple and true to welcome the pure feelings and life experiences as they are without trying to manipulate them, twisting them to fit my own vision or way to do things. I need to allow love, friendship, faith and all of these wonderful guests to shock me, surprise me, stupefy me, and to leave me speechless, helpless, breathless...

My friends...I don't understand love... I don't understand life... I can't figure out what friendship is all about... but whatever... the love I live, the life I'm blessed with and the friendships I discover every day are making me feel so alive... they are delightful mysteries and I am welcoming them as they are.

I have to admit, a lot of times it makes me feel very frustrated and uncomfortable not to understand and control everything in my life. To let go is my every day challenge. Opening up like I do every single week in this diary is an exercise that helps me so much but it could very easily become a trap if I again invite comfort instead of real growth and sharing... comfort would mean to use the right words to make you agree with me and again manipulate to get you to love me. I am alone in this process so I have to watch myself and really be true. Which is different when we're doing the band interviews like the special Where Did We Lose Each Other series (that you HAVE TO watch by the way... they truly are a source of treasure!!!). These interviews are intense for me and comfort is not even knocking at the door!lol These video interviews confront me, push me to strip down the nice smiles to expose myself more like the example the guys are setting in front of me. That's the power of being together I believe... the impact the guys have on me is my treasure and saved me so many times...

Jeff is always an example for me of being true and not to care about showing off something nice, but displaying something true. When he lives his emotions live on the Bla Bla Bla and talks about his struggles in the different videos and just to see him always committed to supporting each and everyone of us... To hear Alex say live that he couldn't blog for so many years and developed agoraphobia... exposing himself... telling the world about it just as raw and true as the reality was for him. When I see him today overcoming his own demons and blogging again after so many years saying that he finally found himself a home, a place in his life where he knows he's at the right place, at the right time and being really happy, wanting to share with everyone... well that makes me curious about what he will explore in his life and share with all of us... I think his blog should be in our BOOKMARKS! Go ahead Alex! Explore your own soul, change your world and create your Disney Land! Share it with us and we won't remain only witnesses, we'll also gain strength and we will be inspired to do the same in our life!!!

Everything is a question of decision and of the degree of commitment we will have concerning these same decisions. It's the beauty of being an adult! We can of course act like kids, constantly reacting to what is happening, complaining that we don't have what we want, disgusted because we get dirty and nobody is cleaning up our mess, playing carelessly with whatever ends up in our hands, breaking up the precious things we have in our life and running after the next toys... So many of these "kids" finish their life alone, unable to laugh, empty handed and wiping wordless tears. I don't want to be like that. So that means I have to pay attention to each of my decisions, commit to what I decide in my life and commit to the people I surround myself with.

Over the years of blogging I have always tried to give you my best, but looking back I know I have failed at pushing my own limits of comfort to touch and share what is really true and the real love, the real friendship. But you guys are so good to me, so patient and so encouraging. I am thankful to you and I do commit to open my door to our life together, to push and free myself from anything that could try to keep me from loving you for real.

-Miss Isabel

"I Urge You To Explore!"

My dear friends,

you have no idea how important the next minutes could be...They could impact your life forever... You decided to take a few minutes to read this blog maybe out of curiosity or you are faithfully welcoming my heart and thoughts, allowing me to share with you and grow up with you. But I will surprise you this week because I won't write many lines, I will in fact urge you to explore something that I personally want to dig in deeply and think about: Alex's new blog!

Some of you might not know, but Alex wrote some blogs a while back and each of them were so intense and powerful that I have witnessed international movements arising after some of his blogs, I saw people finding the courage to open up for the first time about things they wanted to be freed from... I remember wondering myself how he could gather enough love and trust to be able to deliver such honesty. Listen... this man is not God or anything close to perfect, but just take this moment as an opportunity to explore his thoughts, his heart, his vision as he talks about the words he wrote without even knowing they would become the song: "Where Did We Lose Each Other".

"As a writer, everything starts in a very isolated place, where your emotions could freely bloom because you're not exposed."-Alex

Many people asked him to blog again, to expose more of who he is, what meaning is carried in his words and how he sees the challenges of life, and as I myself dig in his new blog I totally understand why... there's a treasure there for me... there's something in it for you too...

I urge you to explore and find your treasure!

NOW: http://alexhenryfoster.com/

-Miss Isabel

Miss Isabel's diary "ardent revolutionist of the heart... I dare you to love"

Do you know one of the ways you can recognize that you truly love someone? I know I love someone when the only thought or the simple view of that person being happy is making me happy and smile, even if the source of happiness has nothing to do with me and even if that person doesn't even know I thought or saw him/her...

I could feel so much love coming our way last Sunday during the Bla Bla Bla as you guys were laughing and smiling to see us go crazy and having fun...being happy. And I could definitely also feel and witness so much love radiating from inside the Studio through the walls, through the computer screens, through the distance that was miraculously banished as we were together in a common space and time. Did you feel the love in the numerous videos that our amazing video crew crafted? Could you imagine the smile of Kanu and the design team as they spent countless hours polishing each visual detail so you would feel glad to receive something so beautiful, thoughtful and meaningful? If you had a little warmth going through your cheeks as someone sent you an invite, a personal message, it's only because that someone poured out the best of love, energy and passion in order to reach you, touch you and take care of you... And the management team, the creation team, and the band, as we are a part of this truthfully loving family. Now you get why we're rock enough to create that "Everybody Loves Jeff" t-shirt!lol

www.yfestore.com

The description of the shirt is really worth the read:

In the spirit of the 60's, the "Everybody Loves Jeff" t-shirt is a perfect demonstration of what true and pure affection is all about. In a world built on individualism, self-righteousness, egotistic devotion and inconsideration…

Compassion, sympathy, altruism and empathy are needed more than ever.

As some people, like Jeff Beaulieu, opened the way, it's now time for every single one of us to make a stand and take the lead. Evil and hatred are never ashamed to show the colors of their apathetic nature. So how should we be, when it's time to embrace the quintessential essence of love... yes, we love Jeff... not only for the incredibly caring man he is, but because like him... we know the fruits that love can bare... today a t-shirt... tomorrow the whole world.

So wear your love and become an ardent revolutionist of the heart... I dare you to love!!!

Yeah... an ardent revolution involving each one of us. Ardent...Burning... As I was watching the new video-clip "Where Did We Lose Each Other", I was struck by one particular image. The whole video can touch you and I in so many ways and can take different meaning for each of us, but today when I look at how the light is omnipresent, so strong, overpowering the individuals, taking the whole place...the light and the sound... Even if the lyrics are quite deep and express a journey of confusion, loss, pain, searching for hope and redemption, transition and life... the light is always there... the sound never gives up... And then there is THIS SCENE, about 2 seconds long, that shows the whole band in the middle of our studio/church, shining like a furious flame piercing the surrounding darkness... When you know what we had to go through to stick together, take each of our places in that circle, to learn to feed our own fire and then fully embrace the vision of bringing the best of our light, energy and warmheartedness together, as one, united to shine even more and inspire more people to create their own bonfire.

To be united is very powerful. Together we can overcome anything that comes our way on a personal level. We have to learn to allow ourselves to shine... we might be shy or feel ashamed of what this light will reveal... and then on top of this another will shine on us and reveal even more?:P? My gosh!.. well... I understand the feeling. But, please, believe me or believe what you see, the more I let myself shine and the more I get close to people who are burning with passion, the more my heart is hot, the less I fear my own differences, the more I value the strength of others as they enlighten areas of my life that I'm weak in and they strengthen me! You might feel you're not a big flame... maybe you feel more like the tiniest coal... Let me remind you of something Alex said (excerpts from the"Love Is a Promise - Reissue" live chat )

"I guess I will always be fragile... maybe... but somehow, I'm not afraid anymore... in some standards, I'm a failure... and I rather be a hot coal than a frozen piece of gold... and that's alright for me... that's perfect for me..."-Alex Foster.

I'm proud of you all my "coal-mates"! Let's be hot together and fire up everything around us!

Miss Isabel

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"This is your first stop... but be ready for something amazing: CHAOS AND COMMUNION"

Hi dear ones!

I always feel very lucky to know you just decided to read my humble words... I've been blogging for 4 years already and I have the assurance that I wouldn't be the woman I am if I hadn't poured my heart, mind and soul out this way... and if you guys hadn't been on the other side of these lines with your own inspiring comments sending back my way love, encouragement and invitations to think further. Over the years, I was also amazed by the expressive writing talent of Jeff and Alex who shared so much through their blogs as well. They have such a special loving way to write... both very different and reading them is like discovering a treasure and the more we sip in their words, the more we not only understand their meaning but also what place they can take in our life.

Now... I ask of you to do two things:)

First, go discover the new "Chaos & Communion" blog section on the Your Favorite Enemies website. Bookmark this page and anytime you feel like having a very unique insight on how a rock band is living through the musical and spiritual journey drop by "Chaos & Communion"!

Second, read Alex's post on the new section, sip in his words and leave for him, for the whole band and for everyone who might pass by, your own words... I believe your simple words sent back our way will have a huge impact on us and on so many people... Can you do that? I believe you can:)

I'll go read you on the amazing "Chaos & Communion":) I'm proud of you guys.

Miss Isabel