Hi sweet folks!
Is it only me or is time just flying? As again I find myself in front of my computer screen wondering what I have in me that could be bright, inspiring, simply loving or just good enough to bring us closer to each other... Too often we can feel life is like a carousel; it's beautiful, music is sweet, the colors are vivid and appealing but soon we realize that the fake horse doesn't take us anywhere other than this everlasting same circular scenery, we kinda feel it's time to step off, stop the circus and walk with our own legs towards a different horizon.
These past days I've been feeling really really good, consciously feeding my heart and mind with the truth of what I really am and what I'm meant to live. Every day I am challenged to do either what I know is right for me or just say "Whatever... I'll do what I feel like doing and don't care about the consequences". When I chose that second option of "whatever, I don't care" it always brings me away from what I really desire to be and live, but what for? to satisfy a very short term pleasure?... For the opposite, when I do what I believe deep inside is right, I can appreciate so much more my own freedom of choice and enjoy the long term and empowering sensation of walking the right path.
I want to share with you something that helped me make those right choices! Every day I have a talk with myself, many times a day in fact...lol... I know it sounds weird, but to actually THINK is something I'm still learning to do! What am I telling myself?lol well... I tell myself "I am a beautiful person, so that is why today I am choosing to eat the proper food to keep being this way", "I am a woman of conviction, that is why I will stand by my word and do what I said" "I am a loving friend, that is why today I will go out of my way to help others". The truth is that I know perfectly well I can and want to improve in each of these areas. I want to continuously work on my body, my mind, my heart, my qualities, my abilities, BUT when I talk to myself like this, I am in fact saying out loud what I believe I'm meant to be even if I'm not perfectly "IT" right now.
Sometimes I feel stressed, I feel I don't have what it takes to wear "Miss Isabel's shoes", I have thoughts in my head telling me all kinds of negative stuff that only lead me to isolate myself, hide, put on a fake face and lay low to make sure no one would notice me... Do I have to cope and keep these thoughts? NO! I have learnt and still practice to push away the thoughts and fight back!!! Music is so true, so precious that I can't live in it and be hand in hand with lies... It's one excellent place where I have to let go, be totally defenseless and expose my true heart. Not only because it's music and it touches me deep inside, but also because I see and hear my brothers, my band mates, who are themselves dedicated to be true and to let go of their own boundaries and limits!
Being confronted in what we are by being open to what others are living and what they would say... it's a scary thing! But once we realize how it can make us grow... we see how much of a treasure it is... and how much we miss by running away from it... Someone said "iron sharpens iron". Do we want to be sharp? or only "look" sharp? and if we want to BE sharp, to shine, to be relevant, impacting people around us... are we willing to be sharpened?;) Are we avoiding confrontation with every possible tactic from agreeing with everyone or by staying away from everyone and laying low? Or... are we true to ourselves keeping a humble heart to hear and think about what others have to say to help us grow and become even better.
It is NOT easy, I personally struggled for a long time just to WANT to hear what others have to say about me in a positive way, but believe me... it IS POSSIBLE because I am experiencing it right now and I am so amazed at how I can grow, become a better person, see new horizons, touch amazing things, feel much better about myself, believe even more in love and hope...it's not a carousel...turning round and round...it's LIFE!
What are the voices inside your head?
You can count on us to always be behind you and tell you how we believe in you and think you are amazing... and you can count on us also to always be there to remind you and encourage you that there IS MORE for you!!!
Miss Isabel